Now that I have found five minutes to look at a calendar, it's upsetting to begin wondering where all my time has gone... It is amazing to think about the last 5 weeks that have passed, it really was not that long ago. But at the same time feel like I've been locked in time, not moving anywhere, for at least 3 months... I hope that is not the case, because I really am looking forward to the end of this semester.
Now, back to it... Time to get back to the e-journal... sorry to anyone waiting for the pictures from the summer. I've continued to experience some technical difficulties. I hope to not keep anyone waiting much longer, but I have hardly found time to put these few thoughts on paper, so don't hold your breath.
This week's verse (I should probably say, "the verse for an undetermined period of time" just to be safe) has been in my thoughts and in my conversation for weeks... and I am just now acting on the conviction I felt three weeks ago after first discussing it during Bible study.
I Timothy 4:8-10
Physical exercise has some value, but spiritual exercise is much more important, for it promises a reward in both this life and the next.
This is true, and everyone should accept it. We work hard and suffer much in order that people will believe the truth, for our hope is in the living God, who is the Savior of all people, and particularly of those who believe.
How easy is it to neglect our physical needs, especially when we are busy? Why is it then that it is even easier to neglect our spiritual needs? I feel like I visit this topic time and time again. I don't make enough time, shouldn't making time be easy for a gracious and merciful God? So many questions, and yet the answers seem so simple. Why haven't I given God my best of everything, and not just the best of what I want to give- isn't he deserving?
Yes, he is more than deserving... and I still struggle with my own selfish human desires. Why can't I strive to give God my best, like I feel I do more often for work and for class? Outside of what Paul is saying in I Timothy, I believe I need God's help to love him. Are we as humans capable of loving anything unconditionally, even God himself? While I wish it were true, and with God's help I believe we can come very close. The fact of the matter is, we are incapable of loving as God loves...
That's what it comes down to I guess, disciplined love. Or at least a passionate pursuit of the Love that has been given us.
A friend, b_bOss recently reminded me via his "tweeter"
- "My favorite things in life are the most consistent ones".
I couldn't agree more, and I can't think of anything more consistent than the grace given to me for my imperfections and my shortcomings. People will let me down, and I hope I will not love them any less for it... I will continue to struggle with business and distractions, but I hope that I will love God more through it... Thank God, that he will not love me any less, and is deserving of my absolute best.
